First part of medical abortion tomorrow.

[jammygem]

I can't sleep. I'm having the first appointment/scan/tablet tomorrow afternoon (well, technically today now)

I'm so scared and worried. I don't really know what to expect. I feel guilty as hell even though I know it's the best (and only) choice for me.

Someone tell me it's going to be OK?

Thinking of you. I know you will not gave decided this lightly.

have, sorry

don't be scared, it will be fine. I know you will have given this a lot of thought and reached a choice that's best for you, it took me over 2weeks to decide it was right for me some 4 years ago.

After the first tablet, not much happened for me some cramping and dull aches.

I'm here if you want to talk x

I am sorry you're having to go through this. It will be ok if you are sure you've made the right decision.

I have recently been through the process too. I fell very unexpectedly pregnant despite being on the mini pill and found out in August when I was 8 weeks on. After much soul searching my DH and I decided not to continue with the pregnancy as our family is complete.

On the day I went for the first tablets I was a mess and nearly backed out as I was so scared. I found the scan quite hard to deal with as it made it real but you don't need to look at the screen. Once I got to the hospital and took the tablets I felt a bit better and I was 100% sure it was the right decision. I would say if you have any doubt, you must delay and think hard as it's such a massive decision.

The day before I was due to go in for the second part of the process I started to cramp and bleed so had to go in early and then they inserted the vaginal tablets that night. I stayed overnight and I got home the next day. I was given strong painkillers and felt supported by the nurses. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be as I was terrified.

A few months down the line now all I feel is relief and I have no regrets at present. I'm sure when my due date come round I will wonder what might have been but I am still sure I did the right thing.

The one thing I did have was amazing support from my husband, parents and a few trusted friends. I hope you have been able to get support from those close to you.

I'm sorry if I've waffled on but I wanted you to know how my experience was. I never once felt judged by any health professionals I saw. It was as positive an experience as a horrible situation could be.

Stay strong, I know how hard it is.

I didn't see this until today - how are you doing, jammy? Is everything ok?

Thank you everyone.

I'm doing ok. Had a bit of a panic at the first appointment where I kept fainting but was all alright in the end. Took the second pills yesterday, the cramps were almost immediate. I've never known pain like it... All that is over now though, now the physical stuff is not so bad it's the emotional stuff that keeps hitting me.

I'm glad to hear you're sort of ok, it's all that you can ask for at the moment.

Be kind to yourself, physically and emotionally.

Do you have people around you who know what you've gone through over the past few days?

How are you feeling now? Ok I hope.