I am 4 weeks. We have 2 children already one will be one next month the other is 3. We do not have family near by to help us out. Both my pregnancies have been difficult. The last one wasawful with SPD and a pro lapsed disc and the thought of feeling so useful to both of them while heavily pregnant and not enjoying them makes me realise now is not the time.we have decided together that yes we do want a 3rd now that this has happened but not now while my pelvis is still a bit weak. But I am scared. I am having a medical termination. Can anyone help me come to terms with this.....