Had my 33 week check today (amconsidered high-risk so getting a weekly check with the midwives) and I finally saw my consultant again for the first time since my 18 week scan. I just wanted to ask her some questions about the birth - whether I need continual fetal heart monitoring this time/how long I can stay in the bath etc. So after running through my questions (some of which may have been a little pfb-ish even though it's my 2nd pregnancy) she looked at me and asked how I was feeling and out of nowhere I started crying. And I mean little tears which rapidly turned into full-on sobbing! I gushed out loads of things that I'm currently stressed about, some of which I hadn't even realised yet... The thing is that I never get all emotional like this - I've always been one to force a smile on and soldier on, even close friends are amazed at how "happy" I can seem in spite of loads of crappy things which have happened in my life. I had a bit of PND after DD was born and carried on through that as well...though that was what I wound up sobbing about today - being scared about it happening again. Anyway, the consultant was lovely - even hugged me and got a midwife to come in and chat with me before she had to leave. But I still left there a sobbing wreck - and I'm still all teary 3 hours later. I'm telling myself it must be the hormones - there's no new crisis or anything - why else would a be a sobbing wreck like this?!?!
Hoping that I'm not a freak and that it is just the hormones and someone else has been like this! (Not that I want anyone else to be weepy, but just to not feel alone in my pregnant weepiness iyswim...)