It just sounds horrible, I guess it's a gut reaction. It seems to be presumed that at the next appt. I'll want one. I don't like CM and I don't feel like there's a great level of privacy in the clinic. I'd probably be more so inclined if it was in the hospital, but the idea of taking my knickers off on the grotty bed in a pokey room off a busy corridor in the clinic fills me with shame. Would I be unusual in saying 'no thanks'? I'd only be 40 + 3 at the time, later on maybe I'll feel differently but it doesn't seem like I'll be panicking about it at only 3 days over. Also I just don't like CM, she ignores me and is generally half-arsed in all she does. It's an intimate act and not something I want to do with her.
I'm well aware that in labour there may be a need for VE etc. but the situations rather different and I doubt I'll mind. I'm 39 weeks btw.