willitbe, Ive had 2 MC, and am currently 11.5 weeks (I also have a 5yo DS). I have had 2 scans for "reassurance" but I am not sure if they reassured me or not... I know you know what I mean. At 9 weeks, my scan was great, but I was still having brown spotting, which made me think, "Well, yeah, it's fine for now, but..." so I dont think it reassured me, as such. Although the 2 scans did give me a reason to continue trying to be positive.
And like you, I was almost sick with worry waiting to go in for the scan. We've been robbed of the pleasure of these occasions now.
I am using progesterone cream this time, even tho no reason was found for what went wrong before. I have no idea if it is helping or not, but darent stop using it.
When I first found out, I felt positive and happy, but when I was hospitalised at 5w due to severe nosebleeds, and had to have my nose packed then cauterised, I was sure the stress and upset meant that all was doomed. THEN, 24hrs later, I realised I hadnt brought my progesterone cream with me, so therefore I had missed a dose, and I just sobbed and sobbed for hours. The next week was absolute hell, waiting to see if it all went wrong.
As the weeks passed, I started to relax a little again, but then the spotting started at 7.5w, and lasted for 2 weeks. It came back the other day again, so I'm assuming both times were when my period would have been due (7.5 and 11.5 weeks)... I'm praying thats all it was, anyway.
I even get superstitious now - I was scared to register to mumsnet and talk about it all, just in case it "jinxed" things. I bought a Belly Belt, so that I dont have to buy maternity clothes yet - just in case. Ugh, it's horrendous. But it will be way more than worth it all if all works out in the end. Positive thoughts and vibes to all of you.
Sorry, that turned into a bit of a self-help ramble...