I know I am being silly .... but I just can't help being terrified ....

[Ghosty]

S'only me again.

Like the title says ... I know I am being silly but I am just terrified that I will lose this baby. I can't get it out of my head. I am 9 weeks on Saturday and there is no reason to suggest really that there should be a problem as my boobs are like rocks and I am feeling permanently sick and I am putting on weight BUT I just can't help it. This morning I had a bit of discharge ... nothing nasty, but managed to convince myself that the baby had died like last time (I had a funny discharge 2 weeks before I started bleeding).
I have even got a scan tomorrow morning (begged my m/w for it) even though there is no real need. I am convinced there won't be a heart beat and I even dreamed the other night that I am not pg at all and I have imagined it all and that the sonographer will laugh at me.
I am not sleeping ... and want to cry all the time.
Oh god Oh god Oh god ... somebody slap me and tell me to get a grip .... pleeeeeeaaaase!!!

Well I am back everyone and smiling as you can see.
Bubs is absolutely fine so far ... 2.3 cm long (how small???) ... EDD according to size is 30th Jan (according to my dates it is 31st Jan so we're spot on!) ... very strong little heart beat and he/she was even moving a little bit. Obviously he/she is still at that little prawn shape stage and the legs and arms are not fully formed yet as they are at 12 weeks but we could see the wee little legs wiggling!
I had tears (of joy and relief) running down my cheeks ... the sonographer was lovely and knew how worried I was before she started ... DH told DS that we were looking at a tiny baby in Mummy's tummy and DS stared ... then changed the subject (I think he thinks that we were having him on!)!!
So ... sorry for being a paranoid old bag ... thank you all for being so lovely to me ... and now will go to that thread that pie mentioned ....
Love you all .... cheers ... ghosty xxxxxxxxxx

Great news Ghosty! So glad to hear all is well. Enjoy the feeling of relief and joy that always comes with seeing the bub. Ahh its a beautiful thing !

Ghosty, thats excellent, very good news
Now to sit back and chill xxx

Brilliant Ghosty! But don't forget that we're here if you need another boost. I've actually been "talking" to you on the "mum2b" thread.

Ghosty. Fantastic. Oh I am so pleased for you. I remember my scan at 9 weeks this time. I was so scared I didn't speak or anything and then DD leaned across me and said "Look theres a baby in your tummy". I couldn't beleive she recognised what it was at that stage but it was trully magical and like you I was so weepy afterwards that I didn't take much else in. I still felt so paranoid though - I'd gone in expecting to have a mc confirmed so although it was wonderful to see everything was OK the high didn't lat long and people can expect you to stay happy all the time. So hang on in there and talk when you need to. Biggest hugs ever.

Brilliant news Ghosty! I've got a lump in my throat now! I must be hormonal.

Only just seen this thread - brilliant news, Ghosty!

is it just me or did anyone else go into their early scans half expecting the sonographer to say "why are you here? you aren't pregnant at all, you must have imagined it!"

anyway delighted it went so well - enjoy that marvellous first trimester run-over-by-a-bus feeling!

Fantastic!

Posted on the other thread, so very pleased to hear all went well, Ghosty

Thrilled for you! and the prawn!!

Great news ghosty

Glad the scan went well Ghosty - and completely understand where you're coming from! Sounds like your first pregnancy was like mine, followed by that 'rollercoaster of new parenthood'. Hope this pregnancy is serene, uneventful, whatever you want it to be...

Oh Ghosty, that's fab! Isn't it lovely to see? PPH, no, it wasn't just you!

Great news. Hope you can relax a little now Ghosty.

Fantastic news Ghosty, I am really relieved and very happy for you. Hope you really enjoy a good nights sleep tonight worry and stress free after plenty of celebrating (in a relaxed and taking it easy sort of way). Hugs.

Great news ghosty x E

glad all went well, ghosty.