Want to throw dp out today but so scared of labour etc

[mama2moo]

I have been posting like mad recently! Mainly about this.

Thought I would get some pg ladies views. Im 36+4 now with dc2. Dd is 18mo.

Dp and I havent been getting on well for months and havent been a 'proper couple' since August.

I found emails to another girl he used to email years ago. We have also fallen out over photos of my dd he has put on facebook (dont ask!!)

I am crying all the time when he is here and fine when he is at work.

I want him gone but am so scared about giving birth alone, dealing with 2 children under 2 alone and money.

WWYD??

You poor thing, I have seen a few of your posts today.
Are you sure the relationship is beyond saving?
All I know is that I am 32 weeks and a completely irrational human being at the moment and I would not want to be making such a huge decision about the future whilst in such a hormone ravaged state.
I wish you lots of luck with whatever you decide to do.

I can't advise you on your relationship but I can let you know what it was like for me to give birth with just me and the midwife at a hospital. It was magical. It's totally possible to have a wonderful birth experience without a partner being there.

I should add that I also had every drug going and heartily recommend an epidural.

Probably way out of line to post this but I know how frightening it can seem to be going into giving birth alone but really, truly it can be just wonderful.

With regard to your relationship, I would get rid if he's doing things that are hurting you while you're pregnant but I'm a contrary old cow with a stubborn streak and you may not be the same.

I hope you, your DD and your new DC find the path that makes you all happiest. x

Thanks both, I am getting the blame for whats happening but he wont believe that it could be pregnancy related. I have had enough now.

Thanks Belle - Thats good to know. I just want the labour out of the way now and to try to bond with dc2 which Im worried about.

I know it's very, very different for everyone but being alone(ish) when my DD was born made it somehow very magical and a private moment between the two of us. I didn't have to share her with anyone. It still makes me cry with joy when I really think about it.

I was lucky and had no complications or anything. Even got up and had a shower while they took DD off to be cleaned up and checked etc.

I think it helped with the bonding if anything.

Anyway, very best of luck and I hope your experience is as magical as mine was. x