Scared when not sick but yet sad when am..

[SmilerJane]

i'm approx 11 wks and constantly bein sick.. nothing stays down.. i h8 it and find myself snapping at my man alot.. and when i have 1 day where i not sick as much i'm terrified as i lost my babies 6yrs ago at 7 weeks but carried them till 12 wks and was then when i just stopped bein sick.. found out on the 5th jan that yr i lost them and was havin siamese twins (conjoined at the head)
this was distressing and now cant help bein scared.. got a scan in 1 1/2 weeks n bricking it incase its not good news..
gosh i wish i knew all was ok

Poor you! Its going to be a tough week but you have to count down the days till that scan. As I understand it your sickness will probably be about due to settle now anyway. Maybe the way the nausea is fluctuating is because you are so worried. I've just found out I'm pregnant for the first time and have had really mild nausea intermittantly. The main give away is my boobs which have doubled in size. I keep checking they're still there to make sure I'm still pregnant! HOpe no-ones noticed me grabbing my own boobs in public. Back at work tomorrow so it wont look very good. I find if I am worried I feel sick and acidy anyway, I got like this before most of my periods, I was so stressed that I wouldn't be pregnant- again!
Fingers crossed when you go for that scan, everything will be ok and the sickness will disappear of its own accord. Practically speaking suggest drink loads of water cos if you are a bit dehydrated that makes you feel worse and also being upset tends to give you a dry mouth-> feeling crappy too.

hi smilerjane
i understand how you feel as i have been there (not with twins though ) i had AWFUL morning sickness when i was pregnant with DD but no other symptoms at all. i started having cramping at around 10 weeks and i was convinced i was going to lose her. i had previously had a MC at 14 weeks 3 years earlier and it terrified me, the thought of having that happen again. i have since had 4 more early MCs and i got my BFP on NY day so pregnancy number 7 for me and i am really rather scared about it all now.
i know it is going to be a hard week for you and i anticipate alot of tears and panicked thoughts but you WILL get through it and there is no reason all will not be absolutely fine congratulations and good luck with your scan and pregnancy

i just get teary when i think of the scan prob just due to hormones but i just cant get excited.. my man wants to talk bout our babies n marriage etc but i just cant not yet. we are happy i just scared to get too happy incase.. ya know.. i hope the sickness stops soon as eveytime i eat i cant help but think please keep this down lol..
plus my DD and DS hate seein me ill. my son said he cant wait till i bak to myself as he hates me bein sad (as ashamed as i feel i snap at him too sometimes) oh i hate myself for that.. i think it dont help as i saw my babies when i lost them so the image is inprinted in my head.. i try to be optimistic. only been sick 3x today so this is a good day.. so hungry tho so goin to attempt to eat! fingers crossed.. thanks for your reply it means alot.

and the boob thing yh i know how ya feel lol was ages b4 i believed i was preg.. i took about 15 tests in total .. good luck at your day bak at work 2mo and i hope that you dont get sickness as bad as i have..

i gettin teary just reading your messages lol.. how sad lol
Thanks PandaE for your msg and Congrats on your pregnancy too
i'm sure things will be ok.. whats scary too is because my man n others keeps jokin i havin twins because of the bad sickness and this scares me more incase it all happens again.. this is the time that i lost them b4 at 11/12 wks.. never had a scan on them babies! i'm exactly far gone and date as them if u know what i mean..
trying to breath.. got a double birthday party to organise so that'll take my mind off stuff (i hope) lol

thanks again to you both for replying