Am expecting my second DS in April 2010. A much wanted addition to our family.
This pg has been tough, DS1 is 17 months and, until recently, I have been working 12 hr shifts in my full time job managing an emergency service control room.
So far I have had terrible morning sickness which I totally accept is just one of those things. This has since been followed by two serious and traumatic bleeds and interventions. Am now looking at having a stitch in my cervix in the next week. Lots of talk about the complications to my poor little boy if he is born this premature, am not 24 weeks till Xmas day.
To add insult to injury they decided today that they also think I have cholestasis and my liver function is poor. This will explain my raging insomnia, feeling like crap and itching. This comes with the added worry of stillbirth.
I am struggling. I am so worried that I won't bond with this baby. I just feel that I can't get too involved because so much is going wrong and this makes me feel just evil.