I am about 5 weeks pregnant, me and my partner were trying for a baby, and we both really wanted another one. However since finding out last week that I was pregnant I have been suffering from uncontrollable anxiety/panic attacks. I hate myself for saying it, but I feel like I just don't want this baby anymore. I can't imagine going through just one more attack, let alone a whole pregnancy. Has anyone else suffered like this and started to feel better before they had the baby. My partner doesn't think I am strong enough to go through with the pregnancy, but I just cannot imagine how I could get rid of my baby.
I had a bad birth with my first and suffered exactly the same after the birth, but this time it's starting before I've even had the baby. The doctor says he cannot put me on anti-deppresents as they will affect the baby. But i just don't know what to do. Anyone with some wise words that can help me?
It just seems like totally irrational fear of having a newborn baby.