Pregnancy madness and irrational thoughts and fears

[crazywoman]

Has anyone else found that pregnancy is spoilt by not only being forgetful and confused but also suffering from really silly thoughts taht keep tormenting them day in, day out? Here's some that I or women I know experience.

1. after getting pregnant despite using contraception think that even though you're delighted now, as you didn't particularly want the baby something will happen to him or her

a) think that you've had such a hard life that you deserve some luck so baby will be okay,

b)then think hang on, I may have been unlucky in love, education, looks, figure, housing, health, bad childhood, etc but one relative has always been very supportive, paying your bills, buying you food, clothes, furniture, carpets, nappies for your child, holidays etc that maybe in actual fact you have been really lucky and can't hope for any more luck so something will happen to the baby

3. think that whenever you get excited about omething it goes wrong so tell yourself and everyone else you're not happy about being pregnant so then the baby will be okay

4. talked about the slight possibility you might have a termination for whatever reason even though you know you wouldn't then spend the rest of the pregnancy convinced that as punishment you will have miscarriage, stillbirth, cot death, child will be abducted, run away or be removed by social services.
   You may even think this punishment is given by God even thought you don't believe him and never have

Anyone had these thoughts or is it just women in my neighbourhood that are this loopy?

Not any of those, but I did think dh was having an affair with our personal trainer. So much so that I used to sniff his gym kit when he came back to make sure he had been working out. He had done absolutely nothing to give me this idea - I was just being completely irrational

none of those either, but have managed to turn very small incidences into end-of-relationship arguements, all without dp saying a word! bless his patience.
I have felt though that things are good for us now that I'm half waiting for something to go wrong, and always have the slight fear that the drinks I had before I knew I was pregnant/drugs I took in college/the excess of tuna that I eat etc will be the cause of something going wrong with the new baby.

Pregnancy makes me irrational too. I remember bawling my eyes out in the middle of the night when pregnant with ds "because he might be a, sob, sob, delinquent, waah, waah" - whaaat? Now I worry about the wine I drank before I knew I was pregnant, about my age, about labour, about coping with a baby and remembering how to keep it alive, about my own mortality, about money etc etc etc. And I cry at the drop of a hat and can fly into a rage for no apparent reason and without warning. It's like being on drugs except you wouldn't pay for this experience.

OOh dear, nobody else on mumsnet who's as bad as me and my friends then. We must all be supermad in our area then.

Another thing I find is that all my medical knowledge out the window I am pregnant. Medication and stuff that I know is safe in pregnancy, I worry about it harming the baby. Symptoms which I knoe are normal I panic about it. Anyone else experience this?

I am a therapist so I have a lot of medical knowledge and I was the same, I worried about taking herbal remnedies, aromatherapy products, certain foods, supplements etc that I knew were safe and also panicked over minor symptoms, every twinge or tiny speck of blood made me worry. Where does your medical knowledge come from?

I'm a therapist too, I've posted under a different name before (baboon) but thought this name more appropriate for this thread. Nice to know I'm not the only one who forgets all their training when pregnant