I found out 4 weeks ago that I am pg with DC3. I was initially shocked, unsure as to what we should do for a variety of reasons, just generally stunned.
4 weeks later and we have told people that we are expecting again, but I can't seem to get excited about it. I have this feeling that something is going to go wrong and I feel that I am just waiting for it to happen. I feel a bit detached from the whole thing.
When DH and I were discussing what we were going to do (this pg is totally unexpected), I told him that if we continued with it, we had to be 100% happy and that we should be as excited for this one as we were with our first two. Unfortunately for me, this isn't happening.
I can't imagine having three children. I can't seem to get excited about it. I wouldn't even believe I was pg were it not for the extreme tiredness that seems to be ruining my daily life - work is a chore, the kids are a chore, my house (which is by no means always looking fab) looks shit all the time and I have no motivation to do anything about it. My degree is already suffering as I just can't get motivated to do any work for it, but then I feel a bit fed up with it because I took a year out after DS (I was pg for the second year with him) and now I'm going through it all again. I don't want to put it off. I'll never finish it otherwise and then the last few years will have been a massive waste of time.
I haven't even been to the GP yet to have it confirmed and I'm aware that in the next 3-4 weeks, assuming everything is ok, I will be getting ready to have my nuchal scan.
I'd like to be excited, but the worry of whether things are ok or not are stopping me, the expectation that something is going to go wrong is stopping me from attempting to enjoy it. Will it get better? Will I want to be pg anytime soon? Your thoughts and opinions would be gratefully appreciated. Thanks