It's the week that I nearly lost my baby and I'm going mental.

[Hangingbellyofbabylon]

With my last pregnancy, dd stopped moving at 34.5 weeks and was delivered by emergency caesarian. By the time she was delivered she had suffered from hypoxia and now has cerebral palsy. Although to a degree this is a blessing as we now know how close she was to dying.

I am now 34 weeks pregnant again and so far have been able to cope but last night I just panicked as baby hadn't been moving well and ended up at hospital being monitored at 1am. The hospital were great and said to come in any time I feel worried. I just can't pick myself up today. I feel like I just want the baby to come now as I can't stand the stress of these weeks and worrying that we might lose her. I keep snapping at my children and just want to lie in a darkened room until it's all over. .

Oh sweetheart, what a worry for you.
Try to take it easy (as you can with other children!) and take heed of what the hospital said,if you have any worried contact them. Best of luck. x

Oh you poor darling, I completely understand, having been through similar. All I can say is do take them up on their offer to go in any time you are worried, as far as that is practical for you. What are the plans for the birth- will you be induced at a certain number of weeks? Have you got any midwife appointments scheduled this week which could help, so you are not going too far in between appointments to get you through the crucial week? Thinking of you x

had midwife yesterday morning so nothing for 2 weeks now. They won't induce me because of previous section. I am trying for a vbac as will find recovery impossible after a section as I have to do a lot of carrying with my disabled 3 year old. Just feel flattened today.

Oh Hangingbelly my heart goes out to you.

It is completely understandable that you would be feeling like this.
Remember, this is a new and different pregnancy, with as good a chance of ending positively as any other. As Sauce and Tits have said, ring the midwives whenever you need, go in to be monitored, get checked as often as you feel the need, but do remember 'this too shall pass'. You can get through this.

Do you have anyone who could come and help out with your DCs and give you some time to lie down and be calm?

Hanging we are here for you, if it helps at all xxx

thank you, I've got through another day. I think it would help if I did have some time out from my girls, even getting round Sainsbo's was unbearable today - wheelchair pushed with one hand, heavy basket in the other and dd1 being a bugger and running away from me constantly. My mum is just lovely and does what she can but works full time, in-laws are very much set in their ways and enjoy the retired life, they keep talking about taking the girls out but never ever offer and I hate asking. Luckily babes has been moving lots again today which always helps me to keep going. Just got to get through these next few weeks.

Its a completely normal reaction. On the Bliss forum you often get people celebrating getting past where they got to before. I know I was apprehensive coming up to the time and relieved to get past it. I know theres no real logic to it but its human nature.
Hang on in there. This too shall pass

babylon oh, i really feel for you, I really do. I'm a first-timer to pregnancy and cannot imagine what you went through I'm 28 weeks myself, and can well imagine that if I had been through what you've been through I would absolutely be freaking out/apprehensive too!

Can't you just outright ask your inlaws if they'd take the kiddies for an afternoon? or even a whole day and night?!?! Maybe they're the type of people who don't like to seem pushy (- my inlaws are of that generation who don't like to make a fuss/cause any bother/ask too much of anyone, so I can well see them in the future not asking to have my little one when in fact they'd love to if they could think of a way to ask IYSWIM) Tell them straight that you're exhausted, that this stage of pregnancy, as your mum-in-law might remember is very full-on, that you could do with a 'time-out' day...see what they say. I know you hate asking - but they might jump at the chance, even just taking them to the park or something so you can sleep or do something silly might help(I've been putting facepacks on my sore feet when no-one is around!) - they might even have them at theirs overnight, ooooo luxury...

and as others have said, don't forget this is a different pregnancy, I really really hope it will be smooth sailing for you to the end of it now. best wishes.