fat miserable tired feeling like running away but it just follows

[dizzymare]

This isn't going away and I can't get away from it, I feel so fat already, unattractive, spotty, tired and my patience with ds has been low today, poor thing. There's so many deserving people out there who would give their right arm to be in my position, or to even have one child. But I feel gross, and hate the way I'm changing, and totally dreading even having to feel this pregnancy. Sorry, I'm having a bad moment and think it's better to get these things down than let them stew. I don't need anyone to reply, this is for my benefit and the benefit of my head.

Oh god you sound just like me about four months into my last pregnancy! It does get better and work out in the end but don't be too rough on yourself. We all get a bit shouty and feel like crap sometimes.

Do i? I'm not too shouty, but feeling like shit 80% of the time, 20% I'm normally asleep

LOL - well hopefully you'll maintain your good sense of humour when those percentages equalise in the third trimester