I'm 13 weeks gone, and it's only going to get worse, isn't it?
Near enough everyone that i've told that i'm pregnant has said the same thing - are you going to find out what it is? Oh you have to find out - and it's really doing my head in!!
Well no, i don't have to find out at all - and the more people tell me i do, the more i'm determined that i won't.
It seems the only reason people want me to find out is so that they can know what colours to buy - my best friend is desperate for me to find out so that she can go to the next sale in January and get much more for her money DF's mum wants to know so she can know which colour to knit - i told her to knit white things.
I just feel so pressured, you know - and i also feel that if you find out and tell people, it's not so much of a surprise, you know?
See there's another thing... a part of me would love to know... but if i found out then i'd keep it to myself and not tell anyone - that's what i did with dd. And the only reason i found out with her was because my firstborn son had a condition in utero which meant he was likely to die after birth - he did - and there's a slim chance that if i have another boy that the condition may reoccour. So i found out with dd at 26 wks, but hubbs and i didn't tell anyone at all - and it was lovely having a secret that no-one else knew. But i know that if i tried that this time DF couldn't not tell his mum!!!
So i'm leaning toward not finding out at all - gah, it's hard this pregnancy lark, innit?