I knew I shouldn't have let my friend lend me hers. She made me swear on my life not to get paranoid if I couldn't hear anything but turns out it is more stressful than I imagined. First of all I managed to find something that said it was a heart beat but it was really slow (like about 85 bpm) when I was told the baby was supposed to be about 130ish... Now I can't find a heart beat at all.
I'm 11.5 weeks so i know logically that it is early to be trying to find a heart beat with one of those machines but I can't get the horrible thought out of my head that I some how hurt the baby by jabbing it with the fetal heart monitor looking for a heart beat. It doesn't help that I (being stuborn and akward abut the NHS 'routine screening' programme which I loathe) refused a dating scan.
Please tell me I'm just being crazy paranoid. If I had hurt the baby, I'd know by now right? (It was Friday night I started playing with it).
Thanks from a very nuerotic first timer :D