Thanks, to first person, good luck with the new arrival! Hope everything goes aswell as possible.
Hopefully period should be on it's way. The more i stress the more i could knock it off track and that annoys me.
Yeah pregnancy tests are rather expensive, i've been here before.
It's the wait thats the hard part but, as i am quite young and have so much ahead of me im not ready for a baby, i've been through all this in my head, but i know if i do end up pregnant i can do it, difficult work but i'll have the support of my family if they need to know and i've a close friend she is pregnant at the minute also, 9 weeks gone.
The stress for me at the minute is with my ex fella, i've talked to him about it and he's scared as much as i am. But i don't know if he'd walk away or stick by me. We have a messed up realationship. That makes it so much harder. It's imature, one minute we'll be on and the next we'll be off. I know i deserve better than him, but i love him with all of me and more and its sad and hard for me. Im finding it hard to cope with the emotional stress that comes from us.
I think wether im pregnant or not what we have or had won't change much at all. We're to put it on a basic line .. Close friends really close and over the years i just happend to fall in love with him, but he didnt fall in love with me, im just there when he feels like i am. I want to walk away from that but i can't!
Also just while i've got my little essay on the go here, i have lower backpain and very faint watery ( sorry for the graphics) pink-ish spotting. I dont know if that would be a sign to my period coming as i always with out doubt get backpain with my period, i never get cramps or anything but i've had a few in my lower abdomen today, or if that could be implantation.
Well thank you for your advice guys
Dee, xo