Hi All
Why is it so hard to conceive a child when all you have ever wanted and longed for is to be a mother? I have now been trying for nearly two years and have no luck so far, we have tried having sex all the time, only have sex every other day , only have sex once a week then we decided to go the our local GP they said I would need to have an internal and external scan they said on the NHS it could take up to 4 months to even get an appointment so we decided to go private and had the scan done that week. They found that I had PCOS but only on one ovary (which I think is a good thing) my husband then had his test done all his swimmers where good and healthy which we both so happy about. As I had been looking so much on the internet and reading in books I had started to go a bit nuts and would break down and cry every time I had a period I was even worse when a friend told be she was pregnant without even trying I was so upset and felt absolutely all full for felling like that I should have been so happy for her and I was in away but it took me a few weeks to fill happy for her. We had to stop trying for a few months as I was getting so upset every month. We started again in January we tried he ovulations sticks I started using them from day 9 every day until I came on again there was no serge so was not ovulating.
I then went back to the GP and I have now been transferred to a fertility clinic which I have my first appointment on the 20th April I think they will put me on clomid. I am just happy that the ball is starting to roll again and something is being done.
It makes be feel that there is something wrong with me that I cant even do the simplest thing and have a baby what have I done wrong that I am not allowed a child. I try very hard not to think about this and try to think on the happy side of things that it will happen it just takes longer for some people.
Sorry I know done of you want to hear the above but just need to blow of some steam sorry