So, just when I thought my home birth would go ahead they have started talking about induction.
I'm not happy with the situation I'm now in and just wondering what others would do. My baby has 'felt' small every time I've had a palpitation since 29 weeks. I then had three scans, the last at 34 weeks which showed the baby's growth was normal - fluid ok and placenta function. No further scans were suggested. Today, I have had an anti-natal appointment with a midwife I don't know (which is how it has been throughout my pregnancy - different people every time). Within seconds she was on the phone shrieking about not wanting to 'get called out' to a baby who has IUGR (which has never yet been suggested!) and also mentioning the fact I have bipolar disorder (how is that relevant?).
I went to the hospital where they did a CTG which was fine. The doctor came and saw me and said that the scanning department refuses to do growth scans after 38 weeks and that since that means she can't know whether the growth is ok or not I can't have a home birth because the baby might not be able to breathe when it comes out. She is even talking about induction.
I think this is very unfair because they will not be able to make an informed diagnosis and I need to be at home, away from bright lights and a bustling work environment which will stress me out and make me hyperactive when I am in labour.
I don't want to put my baby at risk of course, but I'm not convinced there is a real risk here and I'm now being told there is no way to diagnose one. I feel totally bullied and want to find a resolution that is not all about fitting me into a box because other people are not comfortable with a decision I have made carefully, and one which I feel will help me recover more quickly after I have this baby. Which I need to do because I have two older children who need me.
I was wondering whether anyone has measured small with the tape measure and then had a decent sized baby? By the way, I also do not quite trust the doctor today as she told me at the beginning of this pregnancy that I had had a miscarriage, which is now this bump!