I really hate being pregnant today

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Couldn't sleep last night, laid awake for 3 hours trying to get comfortable. SPD playing up, public bone felt like it was throbbing. Then felt sort of comfortable and groggy after moving to spare bedroom with memory foam mattress, only to have the baby start moving at 3am.

Woke up feeling nauseous, then angry because I'm 19 weeks and it really should be done now. Had some bran flakes to try to ease the painful constipation. Took a shower and put on some nice clean clothes. Then DH made a cheese sandwich, and the smell of the Breville had me hurling bran flakes so violently I peed myself (yet again).

Changed knickers and trousers, wiped vomit off shirt and rinsed my hair. Went hobbling to pharmacy to pick up new anti-depressant prescription and more Tena Ladys. Started crying at the counter when the lady asked me if I paid for my prescriptions. At least she was nice about it, she came round the counter and gave me a hug (which of course made me cry harder).

Got some sea-bands that are now cutting off my circulation. Ate a sausage roll from Gregg's (because why bother with healthy, I always barf it up!) and am now covered with flaky pastry and feeling fat and miserable.

DH gone overnight for work and I can't even carry the laundry up the stairs by myself (too heavy, makes my crotch hurt like mad).

So I hate being pregnant today. I really really hate it. Not sure new anti-depressants are going to make it any better.

Pregnancy is vile. Is this your first? Don't despair - some things may improve (though I know you probably want to hit people who say ohhh the MS will go away at X weeks)

Don't feel bad about the food thing - you have to eat what you can eat. I wasted so much energy in my first pregnancy fighting that one, but once I gave in and went with the flow a bit, it got better. I now regard any fruit or vegetable as a complete bonus and junk food as pretty much necessary calories. My eating only really gets normalish at 30 weeks or so, but have never even been anaemic so it doesn't necessarily matter that much.

Sympathies too re laundry carrying. I have struggled with this too despite being mostly physically hale and hearty (just sick and tired and crazy). It's peculiarly difficult to do, isn't it?

Awww hunny poor, poor you. ANYONE would hate being pregnant after a day like that. But it's one LESS day you'll have to be pregnant if that's how you feel. Really hope those tablets help, or at least some of the less pleasant symptoms lift for you. Just try to ride with it and not agonise over the indignities. One day you might fondly - or at least give a wry smile - as you remember all this, when LO is graduating at unversity for example or makes you a granny yourself... there are so many future things to look forward to. Try to focus on them when it's a really bad day. And if you have time and the weather go and bask in the sun.

I remember feeling just like this. In fact, spent most of my last pregnancy feeling like this.

Chocolate if you can stomach it, long bath and weepy films tonight. Let it all out .

Doctors orders.

oh and one more thing....I left the shopping centre and parked next to me was this elderly couple. The man was struggling to lift a wheelchair out of the back for the woman. Normally I would have jumped straight in and offered to help. I used to do care work and lift people and/or wheelchairs all the time! My DH calls me his 'little pack horse'--I NEVER ask anyone to lift anything for me and pride myself on not being girly/delicate.

But what did I do? Thought about how much lifting that chair would hurt my pelvis, did nothing, and got in the car. I know I had to, but it felt SOOOOO rotten.

Yes, it's my first, and a long-awaited first following 1 miscarriage. I thought I would like, if not love, being pregnant. I wish I could time travel and hit myself!

I'd hug you... if I was wearing a plastic apron ;)

Please do stop lifting ANYTHING. It'll make your SPD worse and the worse it gets the less anyone can do to help you before the birth. I hate it. I am totally dependent on DP. He cooks, cleans, lifts, irons, deals with DD. I feel like a complete spare PART! At work I don't take stuff upstairs when I should, I don't move files, and I don't even make brews for people.

BTW, it's not just the hurting at the time with your pelvis. For me, the damage and inflammation accumulates over time, which is why I'm sat here like a queen bee.

Pregnancy is not fun. Wandering round in a daze is probably the best bit. Having a vomit trigger so sensitive you could use to it detect coke on fivers is probably up there with the worst.

• mornings are such fun!