Can't believe I have reached the final trimester

[hobbgoblin]

I really need to buy some stuff for this baby like a pram and bed but I still don't believe he is going to be okay and I am too scared to.

For those of you who don't know, I had a termination early pg which didn't work (I didn't take all the meds I was supposed to to complete the procedure because I knew I'd made the wrong decision under a lot of pressure from dp who has now disappeared).

Because I am alone and already have 3 children, and a full time job I need to get organised more than ever but I can't bring myself to buy anything.

I think you're doing amazingly and I am full of admiration for the decisions you made - can't believe it's 3rd trimester time already! Don't panic about baby stuff yet, we got home from hospital with dd2 unpacked the moses basket etc to find it had all gone mouldy so had to have a quick trip to toys r us for a new one . There's loads of places that have stuff 'off the shelf' like argos and toys r us and in the early days they don't need loads anyway. I can understand your concerns and wish you well, he certainly is a little fighter to have got this far.

hobgoblin, i remember your story - it's wonderful that you've both made it this far! Are you having regular scans at all to help ease your fears?

I agree with Hanging - all you really need are a few basics. If you can't bring yourself to buy them yet perhaps have them on order on the internet - ready to go at the push of a button.

Good luck with the next few months and try to take the time to organise stuff (i won't say try to relax as that would sound wanky).