32 wks after a stillbirth at this exact time last year and beginning to freak

[oopsadaisyangel]

DS2 was stillborn at 35 wks, mid December last year and I'm getting to the point now where I'm beginning to panic!! I know I shouldn't - I'm being monitored twice a week at the hospital and had a scan yesterday where we seen the wee monkey sticking its tongue out at us but its not enough to stop me thinking that every little thing is a potential problem!! Baby is above average size/weight just now as well so they think they have my dates wrong and I'm further on than they think which doesn't help me either! Oh I just want it here so I can stop all the worrying - I'm so scared this time round!

Ahh!!! My SPD is playing up today as well so not helping to keep me in an upbeat mood!!

hi,

didn't want this to go unanswered...

I'm so sorry for your loss last year, and until you're holding your baby in your arms I don't think you'll be able to relax. I have no real advice for you, just wanted you to know you're not alone. You might find it gets a bit easier once you're through the point where you lost your baby last year. I had a mmc a couple of years ago at 16 weeks, and once I'd got through week 16 of my next pregnancy I was much calmer.

You're 35 weeks already, and it sounds like you're getting terrific care - focus on the fact that you'll meet your baby in just a few short weeks. I know it must be alnost impossible to imagine that this will be the case (somebody very close to me is pregnant after a stillbirth last year too), but you have to have hope and belief that this is your time, and everything will be perfect.

Good luck to you! I'm 35 weeks too with dreadful SPD so I can sympathise with that! Look after yourself and your baby. Be kind to yourself over the coming weeks. You're very brave and I truly wish you all the best. x

Thank you!! Already having a DS(6) who keeps my mind off it most of the time but sometimes the panic sets in and its hard to get past it!!

not much to add to kitkat's comments but just wanted to wish you the best of luck as well x

Good luck oopsadaisy - just want to wish you well really and I hope the next few weeks passes as easily as it can for you. I doubt there are any words of wisdom that will take the anxiety away, but as has been said you are getting good regular care and you have no medical reason to worry. I lost my DS2 at 21weeks pregnant and I was a bag of nerves right until the end of my pregnancy with DS3. It did help once I was further on than 21 wks but I still felt terrified.

Good luck and let us know how you get on