Mummy2t
thing with me is i have 3 boys already...and really thought i had gone past feeling broody!!!
I'm planning to have a tummy tuck next year....(i have alot of psychological issues with my body...i only love my body when i am pregnant)... and that i feel is what has triggered all this....they advise you have it done once you've finished having children.
so when my boobs got sore 2 weeks ago (now i know that was after i'd ovulated!!!!)... and my IBS (irritable bowl syndrome) just stopped and i was constipated (not had that for 3 years!!!!)....and then you can't help it can you....you start to notice all these little things that you are sure indicate that you are pregnant!
in the past i have been scared stiff i was prgnant....but this time...i felt it was a good thing...and like many of you... bought those tests of ebay....5 for £1.88....which meant i was able to test away to my hearts content.... then spend ages turning it this way and that until... tilting it towards and away from the light... i finally admitted it was negative.
And as if to rub it in... this period is awful...the joys of being 41 i suppose....my body reminding me that it is preparing to shut down...and if i want to have another baby- i'd better hurry up!!! (apparently periods get worse leading up to the menopause)
I'm quite aware most months when i ovulate...so if i tied DH down on 'that day' ....so he had no choice in the matter...and jumped on...i'd probably concieve!!!....DS3 was planned...but only when DH agreed one 'try' .....and i just happened to be ovulating!!!!
I am aware i am being very silly...as truthfully, this was entirely just my hope that DH had been a bit more careless than usual....deep down i knew the chances were slim... but i just hoped.
back 11 years ago...i had what the psychologists said was like a 'phantom pregnancy'... as i had severe postnatal depression...had not had sex for 6 months or more.... and was convinced i was pregnant....
I wish i could love my body as it is...but this pregnancy 'chance' has just reminded me how empty i feel.