hi,
I've changed the thread title although I'm a bit that people are asking me to update as I' usually such a lurker and so it feels odd to be talking about me....
today was hard, after 3 days of not talking about the session we had with Pam I finally confronted dh by telling him I needed to talk to him about how he felt about the session....and the babies....and everything.
it didn't go well, having spent nearly 6 weeks in denial and the last 3 days hiding from me but seemingly at rock bottom, he went off like a pressure cooker and smashed up the kitchen. The kids were in bed and at school and I was in the next room but it sared me a lot. He was then in a heap on the floor.
I left the house and sat in the car where I phoned his mum and asked her to come and collect him. about an hour later he went off down the path with his mum and his overnight bag looing like a little boy. my heart totally broke for him, I just get the feeling this is about so much more than just the babies and I'm scared.
on a lighter note though I have told a few good friends about the babies and they are so very excited for me