I'm about 12 weeks pregnant. The circumstances aren't good as the baby's father is someone I got involved with while I was having some mental health problems last year and earlier this year. He was kind to me but doesn't speak English well and takes a lot of drugs. He is currently not in the UK but we still keep in contact via text, MSN etc. I told him I was pregnant before he left, but he got very upset and never mentions it now -- just talks about other things.
I struggled for ages about what to do. I thought I should have an abortion to begin with, but when it comes to it I feel that it's wrong for me and I don't think I could move on if I did it. But I have thought about nothing else and turned the situation over and over in my mind. Everyone around me acts like abortion is a default option, but it is not an option at all unless you know it is the right thing to do...
Anyway, yesterday my friend sent me a message on facebook, saying, among other things that she thinks I should have an abortion in case this baby has ASD (my older dd has it) and she thinks I wouldn't cope with three children. I have explained to her that abortion is only an option if you can live with it and feel comfortable with the decision but she's not getting it and keeps sending me more messages saying 'have you thought this through?' which completely winds me up as I have thought of nothing else! She then sent me another message saying why have I sent one of my daughters to private school in a way which gave me the impression she expects me to explain myself.
Then late last night a friend of the baby's father sent me a text asking about the situation which left me thinking the baby's father must have put him up to it -- do you think I'm being paranoid? I just think why can't he bloody well ask me himself?!
On a positive note, I have never felt so well mentally, in spite of this situation - which I suppose must be the pg hormones.
Sorry this is so long but the whole thing is so tiresome.