Anyone else anxious in pregnancy after a full term stillbirth?

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Hi, im 20 weeks pregnant after a full term stillbirth. At my anatomy scan everything looked good. I just feel very alone and want to know if there is anyone else that feels the same way as i do. Im feeling this anxiety that i will die. im ashamed to admit it. But it feels very real to me. Anybody felt the same way?

yummyscummymummy01-Thank you!!!! Thank you for making me feel somewhat normal. The anxiety can make a person feel like its so real and realistic. I keep on talking to myself...

Maybe your brain has given you this fear of yourself dying as a way to avoid the even greater fear of losing another baby. Our brains do such convoluted things. Wishing you some peace and a healthy baby

It makes so much sense what you are saying

Thank you to everyone who responded, its so appreciated!

im still open to hear if anyone else experienced feeling something like this

I went through recurrent miscarriages. For the pregnancy that I finally took to term I was obviously very fearful of losing the baby but in the final trimester I then became very anxious about dying myself. So I think what you are feeling is not unusual.

I’m so sorry for your loss. Like other posters, I really would echo the suggestion of reaching out for support. How you feel is really not surprising - but you don’t need to feel like this - help is out there.

I really do wish you all the very best.

Thank you for taking the time to respond. I do have very good friends, but maybe i will reach out for some counseling. I realized the feeling gets worse when im tired. Being pregnant after loss is like being on a roller coaster. so many emotions, so many highs and lows