I can’t stop crying. I am in a state of panic attack. I am starting a new job at the end of the month and just had a positive pregnancy test. This would be my third pregnancy. We would have loved a 3rd but the timing is completely off, mainly because of money. I will only be eligible for MA and as silly as this sounds, I don’t think I can cope with a newborn, 2 toddlers and also being skint. My husband’s money can cover us but I feel I need my money, my own money. We will also be stretched thin. No more holidays etc. both of our children will still be in nursery etc. at the same time we know we want 3rd so will I regret this if I terminate? Will I, come March, fall into a deep depression thinking of the newborn I ‘should’ have had?
i also dont know how/when to tell new employer. I am in such a mess. I hope i am making sense