Would you go for a private scan in these circumstances?

[SquareSweetsThatLookRound]

Morning all,
I want to preface by saying I had three miscarriages last year and it took us a long time to conceive. Last year I was diagnosed with a life changing condition which has made me increasingly anxious.
I am currently 13wk 5 days pregnant. We had scans under the EPU at 6, 8 and 10 weeks and then our dating scan at 12 weeks. All is well but in the last three days I have felt much better. I had been having to go straight to bed after work due to fatigue and struggle to keep any food down ( had three lots of different anti nausea medicine but nothing helped). The last few days I have felt really well. Still have food aversion and vomiting in the morning as long with sore nipples, bigger boobs and discharge.
My concern is if I do have a private scan I will become dependent on them and this will only increase my anxiety. I do have one child but she is 7 and a half and I will admit I was blissfully ignorant to pregnancy loss.
I am on aspirin and progesterone.

My concern is if I do have a private scan I will become dependent on them and this will only increase my anxiety.

I wouldn't. You know yourself better than I know you and it seems that you already know that a private scan wouldn't actually help you in the long term. Trust yourself.

To answer your question i wouldn’t go for a scan, as it all sounds normal. My all-day nausea lifted around 12 weeks, it sounds like yours is easing off, so quite ‘textbook’ at this stage. Have you spoken to midwife about your anxiety around this? You could go for regular private scans if you can afford to but if it doesn’t help with anxiety it’s probably not worth it. That said, having one scan could help reassure you now and if you start feeling anxious afterwards again you will know it’s not the answer. Do you feel slightly more assured now you’re beyond 12 weeks? Do you think one at 14/15 weeks will give you enough to not worry as much until 20 weeks?

I have an appointment with the midwife on the 7th of April. My hope was I would feel better after 12 weeks but maybe I need to get a bit further into the second trimester before I feel better. I am still checking for blood every time I go to the toilet.

I completely understand how youre feeling. My anxiety has lingered after my 12 week scan after a MMC.
I have kept telling myself its not an option to go for a scan until 16 weeks, if my mind hasn’t settled by that point I can book one and its the half way mark between 12 and 20 weeks - maybe try and get through this week and see how you feel? Xx