I have just discovered I am pregnant with baby number 3. Complete shock. I have been on the pill, regular periods, 30-34 days - which is regular for me. History of heavy, irregular, difficulty getting pregnant and staying. Basically just not very good and this whole being a woman thing. I was being investigated for ovarian cysts as I have a history of quite large ones.
During my scan they find out I am in fact 10 weeks pregnant! However they have said I am at risk of miscarriage because of bleeding, large cyst and lower HCG levels for how far along.
After much difficulty conceiving (hence the age gap) we have 2 DC almost 2 year old and an 11 year old. I would have loved another in an ideal world. Work, finances, house size. We are quite secure, work hard, are planning a house extension next year (finances permitting), our bedrooms are quite small and do not have the means for children to share in the meantime. Do not have a lot of excess money. Enough for a holiday and some days out but nothing extravagant.
I just feel so torn and I am aware that decision could be made for me. I just feel I am being selfish by proceeding with the pregnancy as my 2 DC will miss out on some once in a lifetime experiences we have planned for this year. More concerned that it’s older DC’s last opportunity to enjoy these before they are 2 old. Also that god forbid anything happen to me I during am leaving 2, potentially 3 children behind. On the other hand I am not sure I can go through with a termination.
Anyone else been through the same thing? Any advice very much appreciated.