In a panic and need reassurance, 6 months pg and just really shouted at my ds (6)

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who's driving me mad with tons of manipulative behaviour. I'm so tired and I'm working tomorrow and have a TON of things to finish and he wanted a cuddle in bed and he just nags and cries until I come and I just lost it and really hollered at him and I suddenly really irrationally thought that I might have somehow harmed my baby or terrified it in some way. I just feel so awful, and awful for shouting at ds too. I'm just so tired I want to get all the chores done so I can go to bed!

I just feel so bad for screaming at hiim but he just pushes me so far sometimes with the wheedling and turning on the waterworks and just manipulating me. And when I'm tired I just haven't got the patience for it.

Anyone got anything encouraging to say, I feel dreadful and am scared I might have harmed the baby somehow.

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you haven't harmed the baby... you know that. you've given everyone a fright though, most of all yourself, and you need to apologise to DS and not give a shit about chores and get to bed. make a plan with ds for tomorrow, that you'll both be kinder to each other.

thanks aitch, thanks so much, i will.

but I am scared of hurting the baby, I know it's irrational but it's taken me years to get pg again and I lost the last pg and I can't believe I've let myself get so tired and stressed. I just feel so bad about it. I really lost it with him, really shouted, it's just horrible of me.

and now you're beating yourself up for it... which is only going to make you more tired and stressed. deep breaths, you poor thing, you sound knackered. promise me you're not going to run this round and round in your head all night.
i had two pg losses before dd... i know it's hard. i'm sorry that your last wee one didn't make it. weird, isn't it, sometimes i almost used to feel bad for feeling happy to be pg with dd. try to sleep, camomile tea and make up nice with DS.

thanks so much aitch you're a sweet heart I really appreciate it. I'm having a massive blub now which is making me feel much better! I am so tired I feel a bit hysterical! I'm going straight to bed thanks again.

night night, try to give yourself a fresh slate tomorrow. (and get a cleaner. )

Thanks Aitch, much better today and planning a seriously early night! ds fine today and so little one who's kicking like normal!
I just forget how much sleep I need and when tired I tip into a sort of desperation for my bed.
All the best