I’m officially done - body is broken.

[Dinosaurhearmeroar]

Hi everyone

I’m 37 weeks and booked for a section at 39 weeks so two weeks left but I am
broken. From 7 weeks, I have suffered with hyper emesis and signed off work for it. Summer was horrendous as I was just in bed all day, so sick and so hot. Then in my second trimester I started getting joint pain which has just got worse and worse - I need crutches and I’m on codeine as the pain is breathtaking. I cry every day because of how awful I feel - I can’t walk, can barely shower and hardly eat due to how squashed my organs are.

last few days I’ve had awful constipation crom
the codeine which makes me feel so nauseous as I’m literally full of s*! I tried to go this morning but I just ended up throwing up due to pushing. I then actually needed to throw up and the force of the vomit made me wet myself. I just cried and cried.

my whole downstairs area, front and back, is so swollen I can hardly touch it as it is tender to touch.

on top of this I have a 3 year old who I adore and I have done my best to keep up with her but I don’t think I can anymore - bending down is excruciating and sitting on the sofa is agony as it is too soft. I feel so guilty to lay this all on dad but the pain is in charge now and im just broken. All I want to do now is lie in bed until she comes but I feel terribly
guilty about my daughter.

not sure why I’m posting this - just feeling so alone in my body and can’t imagine how the next two weeks will go. 😔

Speak to your midwife and get some lactulose, or at least the ok to go and buy some. I took it during pregnancy for the codeine (hyper mobility, spine issues, pelvis issues and then my wrists went so couldn’t even use crutches). At this point you need to just hand over everything. Don’t feel guilt, my eldest was just two and I was so disabled by pregnancies and he remembers none of jt.

Im sorry you are suffering. Don’t try and strain, your butthole will never recover.

@Dinosaurhearmeroar I'm so sorry you're having such a shit time, that sounds really really rough and no wonder you are so fed up! I'm sure 2 weeks still feels like a lifetime, but you are nearly there. Sending lots of sympathy- I'm 35 weeks tomorrow and while I've not been dealing with the hyperemis and physical pain you have been, I empathise with feeling uncomfortable/wetting yourself from throwing up (a new third trimester treat for me). Best of luck with the rest of your pregnancy, and you'll be meeting your baby very soon! Xx

You’re right about the handing over everything - I I have surrendered today as everything is agony and they won’t remember it ultimately. Just hard when this is your present and has been for so long - cant imagine not feeling this way?! Thank you for the advice. Lactose has been bought 👌 x

Thank you - I think I just needed some sympathy ❤️ best of luck with the rest of yours - women really are superhuman. Wishing you an easy rest of pregnancy - thu will be here soon! 🤰 xxxx