Hi all,
I am in shock and lost for words and very unsure whether to believe this could be happening or not.. my defence walls are officially up and standing tall!!
My backstory...
I had an ectopic back in 2014, emergency surgery and tube removal.
TTC for 6 years following, and ended up going for IVF.
First cycle took, but miscarried at 12w.
Second cycle took (not without problems - huge clot bleed at 6weeks. Daily bleeding for the following 4 weeks, and another huge clot bleed at 10 weeks) but now I have a beautiful nearly 4 year old daughter.
Been TTC for 3 years, with no luck..
Decided try IVF again last year. Had 23
eggs, 12 mature, 9 fertilised through ICSI,1 frozen at day 3, and 0 made it to day 5. I was heartbroken.
We transferred the day 3 in October, which failed.
I had given up and decided I was going toenjoy Christmas and New Year and rethink in 2026.
So that's what I did. I drunk, I didn't get enough sleep, I didn't eat healthily at all..
Fast forward to yesterday... period was a day late (I'm usually a day early) and decided I'd use one of my remaining tests for whatever reason... and there it was... the second line! Literally did not believe it.. waited a few hours and took a clearblue digital, and in black and white...pregnant, 1-2 weeks.
I then ordered some more and did another test this morning. Pregnant, 2-3 weeks.
I'm in shock, I dont believe it, and I can't understand it.
I'm just venting really, because my mind is all over the place. I want to be excited and happy, but my guard is up and I just don't know if I can believe it's real.... !!