End of pregnancy and still in denial

[Sunshine8537]

I feel that I haven’t enjoyed this pregnancy for many reasons. One being it followed a MMC in March. I’ve gone for an elective c section due to mY anxiety, risks and baby being breech - I go in tomorrow 8/1. My concern is that it still doesn’t feel real to me and im
paranoid about post natal depression because of it. I have waves of excitement around seeing baby with its sibling however I feel there’s a lot of anxiety around it being healthy.

any stories and advice?
TIA

I had a healthy baby in October after 3 MMCs in 15 months. I also had an elective c section due to anxiety and felt exactly as you do- I think I was in denial for most of my pregnancy as I was 80% convinced he was not going to make it (I had no valid reason for this, other than my previous losses). He arrived and was perfect! It took me about 10 days for it to sink in that he was here, and I worried a little in the first couple of days whether the surreal feeling was normal or if it was me not connecting with him/the beginning of PND. He’s now 12 weeks and the absolute light of my life! Worth all of the heartbreak and anxiety that came before him. No PND. Good luck, you’ll have your baby in your arms before you know it!