Feel lost ans confused

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I have a 3.5 year old and at 42 I have terrible periods lately and thought I was going through menopause but it turns out I am 5 weeks pregnant.

I feel lost money wise can cope but struggling mentally so scared that I will not be able to cope, I feel like I am at a point where my lovely lad is going to school in sept I may have a new job and new ventures and a baby would mean going back with plans.

I have recently sold all my sons old stuff clothes crib shoes you name it and always said I didnt want anymore and will terminate but here I am unable to go through with it and feeling guilty for thinking and saying it

Is there anyone I can talk to I am so desperate for help

Hi I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’ve not been in your situation and don’t have much in the way of advice, but am happy to listen. I have had children who are now grown up, and at one point had a pregnancy scare when I definitely would not have wanted one. I consider I was lucky that time.

I was in the same position. I’m 37 and daughter is 6. I felt the exact same doubts and worries and like you I considered termination which made me lose my mind as I knew I couldn’t do that I’d regret it etc. but also that doesn’t stop the worrying about if I could do this again. It really is horrible when your mind is constantly arguing with itself. The only way I started to settle is the fact that I would picture myself taking a tablet etc and regretting it. I knew deep down that I couldn’t go through with that. So I kind of had to come to terms with having the baby and trying to think positive. ( I knew deep down somewhere I did want my baby) I was just haunted by confusing thoughts. I had a lot of early scans which helped me with bonding and the thought process of yes that’s my baby I can do this!