Im really looking for help from anyone that has had their 3rd baby after it being unplanned.
I found out on Sunday that I am pregnant. Totally unplanned. I needed fertility treatment in the past so we really didnt think this was on the cards for us.
Our two children are 9 and 2 and we live a
fairly comfortable life. Our eldest enjoys her hobbies and we manage to go on holiday
each year. Nothing over the top just living simple and happy.
I feel terrified about having a third. I cant help but worry about how our childrens life will change. How much less time they will get with me, how much more tired im going to be. Will they feel less loved. Will they hate that holidays have to change, thay we dont have as much spare money etc. We dont really have anyone around us to help with the children so I know ill be pretty much in it on my own when my husband is working.
I work as a childminder so I will be home with them all, I will probably have to go back to work after 8 weeks but my numbers will be reduced so ill be earning less.
We have the bedroom space but we will have to lose the spare room. We love having a room for grandparents to stay when they manage to visit so letting that goes feels a little sad. It was on of the reasons we purchased the house at the beginning of the year.
Both births so far have been traumatic, failed epidurals, baby getting distressed. I always said id never do it again as im rubbish at giving birth. Ive had to have inductions with
both of them due to obstetric cholestasis. So I know its probably going to happen again.
Were finally sleeping through the night and have a lovely routine. I really dont know how my 9 year old will take it.
Termination has crossed my mind a couple of times but I know deep down I couldnt do it I dont think. Im sure I will forever wonder who the baby would of grown up to be and id forever feel sad about the decision.
If you have 3 how do you cope? How do you juggle everything for everyone, plus work on top. We also home educate so it all just feels a lot on my plate.
Husband is incredibly happy and supportive and will be supportive about whatever I decide to do.
Thank you for reading and holding my hand. I feel incredibly scared and confused. Its really sad knowing this pregnancy feels different to the others. We were so excited when we found out about our other two. This time I just feel confused.