Abandoned in Pregnancy 2nd abortion or keep?
I currently already have a 9 year old girl, we are very close as its always been just us, her father is in her life she goes every other weekend.
I have been seeing this guy on and off for last two years I fell pregnant last year and had a Termination, due to the fact him lying to me about alot of things and basically blocking me when he found out I was pregnant, Regretfully, I am in this position again after the abortion. He did not leave me alone and he was very sorry for what he did and basically Lured me back in loved, bomb me and lied to me again promising he would be there for me next time and all sorts he literally would not leave me alone I cut him off meny times, but his a Narcissist and a master manipulator and unfortunately I fell for it again, I don't know if he has some kind of Pregnancy fetish bcus he kept saying he wanted to get me pregnant again and that he loves me and I'm the one for him it's endless and the amount of times he reach out to me telling me this aswell during sex, we had unprotected sex last month and i am pregnant again he been round mine alot every weekend and in the week, his been around my daughter I've never had a man around me And my daughter and to be honest I felt quiet overwhelmed when he was, bcus I've always put my daughter first and never wanted her to feel left out, and to be honest I've always said to myself I don't think I can be with someone until she's alot older, im 35 and have been feeling like the time it ticking if I wanted another, but his Literally turn nasty The minute he found out I was pregnant again and basically told me he doesn't want anything to do with me or the baby. I just can't believe how someone can switch after begging me back for so long and not leaving me alone and telling me how things would be so different next time and he would be there for me. I'm very early about 6-7 weeks, I literally don't know what to do. Part of me does want this baby. Cos I feel like this would be my last chance, but then I think how things are with me and my daughter and how close we are, how would it affect her? And also me being a single mum with two different baby dads doesn't sound good and I know I wouldn't be with someone for a very long time after this, how would I cope with that single mums get a lot of stick as it is, But I think maybe that's how my life supposed to be to be a single mum and love my children, It also doesn't help that my sister is pregnant and she is due to have her c-section next week. How am I going to feel holding her baby after having abortion, I have the phone call today to order the pills for termination.But I still don't know how I feel, but I don't want to leave it too long. I just can't believe this man has done this to me. But I should've known from the first time. He already has 3 children in the beginning. He lied to me and told me he only had 2. He had also been very on and off with the baby mum. I reached out to her when I was pregnant and she told me everything that I needed to know. But he literally would not leave me alone, and it And insisted that they are not together, which they aren't But he uses the children as an excuse to go around there. She told me she slept with him last month and he tried to have sex with her last saturday as well.But she said, no, this is after finding out I was pregnant. I know i'm a fool For letting him back in but I'm only human and gave him a second chance.