Bad anxiety in pregnancy

[TheCornishGoodLife]

I have been dealing with increasingly worse anxiety as my pregnancy has progressed. I’m a first time mum, now 33 weeks pregnant and not doing so good.

I feel totally at sea and overwhelmed in life and hope I can pull it together for the baby to come. Admittedly I’ve not been at all honest with my doctor/midwife etc and they think I’m doing great mental health wise. I’m always terrified to ever have mental health on my medical record because of the number of occasions you have to declare it in life - it can seemingly impact life insurance, mortgage etc, so I’d rather keep that record empty and deal with it myself instead.
I did take a few weeks off work recently (said I had back issues), which helped a lot, but now I’ve started back, it’s like I was never off. The anxiety came straight back.
Work isn’t the main issue, it’s just that with everything combined. We moved house last year from a beautiful finished house to a renovation project (seriously regretting this now - I hate the new house and wish with all my heart we were still in the old house). But my home situation is in absolute chaos as a result - it feels like we are almost camping half the time with stuff everywhere. My husband is wonderful and supportive and doing all he can in the short time frame we have, to create me a finished area for me to escape to, but he already works two jobs on top of this, so there is only so much he can take on before he makes himself ill. I feel less ready for a baby right now than I have ever felt which panics me. On top of this, there are other issues with the house that stress me out a lot which aren’t just related to the renovation.
It just feels like a lot. I’m probably wallowing in self pity haha, but I’m finding myself constantly crying and feeling on the verge of a panic attack most of the time, and I just can’t sleep at all every night due to racing thoughts. I didn’t picture our first baby/pregnancy to look quite like this.
I’m also desperately trying to get prepped for the birth and do everything I need for that - I want to go into it in a good headspace.

Sorry for the long post - thank you so much if you’ve read this far!

Anyone else struggled with anxiety in pregnancy? Does it get better?

OP your midwife’s notes aren’t going to impact your mortgage. This is pregnancy related (mild) anxiety, not a psychiatric diagnosis that you have to declare! Please get help - you clearly need it, no one is going to judge you or share this with third parties

its really exhausting. I went through this, bouts of anxiety were unbearable biut thanks to secrets of tea for such an amazing cure. check out relax calm tea, I have been drinking this organic tea

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, OP. I felt exactly the same with both of my pregnancies. During my first pregnancy, we also moved into a new house that was being renovated and it really tipped me over the edge. It’s so hard when you want to be nesting and relaxing, I really do sympathise. With both pregnancies, I found that my anxiety was at a fever pitch in the third trimester and slowly got better after birth, though I did experience PPA and PPD as well. I recognised this with my second pregnancy (DS2 is now three months old) and asked my midwife about support and it’s been really helpful. I’m getting counselling and weekly peer support through the NHS. I would mention this to your midwife or GP, they can refer you for support. I’m not sure about your confidentiality concerns, but I’ve never heard of any link to mortgages, etc.

I'd recommend pregnancy yoga or hypnobirthing classes. They'll help you find some strength and release some anxiety.

I'm 30 weeks and just started sertraline because my anxiety is really bad. I'm breathless alot of the time and they did an ECG and said it was sinus tacadiya. Which is a condition caused by something else which they put down to anxiety. It helped for a week or so but work is triggering me like I feel like something is going to go wrong while working and I'm worried about the birth. Its worth mentioning it's not going to impact anything just gets you a bit of extra support from the midwife