Please someone talk some sense into me- nearly 24 weeks, public toilets and toilet paper checking.

[Kate3150]

As stated in title, I’m nearly 24 weeks pregnant and after a history of losses I’m pretty anxious.

I find I’m still toilet paper checking and last night I went out and used a public toilet for a wee.

I always check the toilet before I use it and after I went, I noticed some brown in the bowl (SORRY TMI) there was nothing when I wiped, baby is still moving normally and heartbeat was checked a couple of days ago.

I feel like an idiot and my heads telling me “the brown” did not come from me and I can’t shake it off.

Wondering what others would do?
I feel embarrassed even relaying the story! X

If there’s no other sign that you are bleeding, I’d assume it’s not you. Presumably you’ve wiped since?

It didn’t come from you. I did exactly the same as you through two pregnancies and the habit actually carried on once I was no longer pregnant, at least for a while. My dd is now pregnant and the anxiety is back but I worry from afar. I haven’t told dd this by the way.
I think, for some of us, this is ‘normal’. Some lucky sods don’t feel this way.

Hugs, and not unmumsnetty ones.

Thank you for both your replies, it’s made me cry to hear back from someone, I feel so embarrassed and I’ve been thinking who would I talk to about this this morning as I feel so silly.
Ive had no signs of discharge (apart from clear)) no blood not anything but my brain can’t help wondering if it was from me and I shouldn’t ignore it.
Pregnancy is so hard 😞

Pregnancy after loss is like holding your breathe for 9 months. It’s checking toilet paper consistently. It’s having good scans and leaving wondering if something will happen to your baby tomorrow. It’s thinking “I’ll never bring home a healthy baby”

The only time the anxiety left me was when my son was placed into my arms.

My eldest son is now 21 but I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks before him. I was the same throughout the whole pregnancy. I think it's very normal. I was much more relaxed during my pregnancy with my youngest son, preoccupied with a toddler, I suppose.

Virtual hug.
What you are feeling is normal for someone whose gone through what you have. You really aren't alone in this.

I bled in my pregnancies and feared going to the toilet. I'd avoid drinking and eating to keep out of loo situations.

Wishing you lots of luck and hope to get a happy update on here in a few months