Hey.
I'm a pain the ass I know this already before you even read any further. Second pregnancy. I'm half way there
Had anatomy scan recently, due to position of baby they didn't get to see all views of heart. This immediately sent my already anxious mind spiraling. They recommended I came back in two weeks time so that baby would have grown more.
Was back in the hospital today for another app and chanced my arm by asking fetal assessment to rescan me. Which they reluctantly did by quite an abrupt manager midwife. She eventually got some more views and said she was happy enough and she would not be rescanning me in two weeks that basically it would tough shit and move on. Of course I appreciate they are so busy but as an extremely anxious person this didn't exactly give me much reassurance.
My 12 weeks scan was fine, had a harmony/nipt test result that came back low probability.
My main worry is downs (sorry not trying to insult downs parents here)
Have a niece who is downs.
I'm trying to gain reassurance in all of the above but I feel like I'm going crazy and wonder will I ever feel at peace and allow myself get excited
Am I alone or does anyone else struggle with these thoughts and emotions