Very early days, only 10 weeks. I had my first midwife appointment yesterday and was told because my last baby was induced due to IUGR, I'd be high risk with this pregnancy and will be pushed for an induction at 36 weeks. I've been put under the consultant care, which is a shame as I've always wanted a home birth, but since I've been high risk with all of my babies, it'll never happen now. The size estimate was way off, but he was predicted to be on the 2nd centile at his 34 week scan, with no progression for 2 weeks after. I was told I HAD to be induced, no choice given. So I felt slightly forced desite telling them I'd like to go to term. This time I'd like to decline the induction and try for a natural birth, but I feel they won't let me?? I have major unresolved birth trauma which still feels so fresh to me, so the thoughts of being in the same hospital, same theater, same horrible obgyns who humiliated me throughout labour, it actually terrifies me. I tried talking this through with the midwife, but she had no concerns over my thoughts at all. I've always had a holistic hands-off approach, which I was lucky enough to have last time despite being induced (no pain relief, gel induction so no pitocin, natural water break, delayed chord clamp etc). But I feel as this will be my last I just want something to go right for once!! 😂