Don’t feel like I’m going to have a baby

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I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my 3rd baby.

I never worried about anything going wrong with my first 2.

I’ve been pretty ill this time round with epilepsy. I’m convinced that my meds have affected the baby. I take the safest medication but have been told that my meds are ‘low risk, but not no risk’ by neurologist. When speaking with the epilepsy nurse before getting pregnant, she made it sound as if it was all totally fine, no issues etc. I had to up my dose of medication very quickly to stop the seizures. I’m worried this has affected the baby.

Anyway, aside from that - I just cannot imagine that I will end up with a baby. I have this horrible gut feeling that something is going to go wrong or be wrong with the baby. I keep thinking it’s going to come out dead or not survive.

I’m borderline convinced it’s the case. I’ve felt like something is ‘wrong’ the whole way through.

Has anyone else felt like this? Was everything ok or was your gut right?

All scans (12 and 20 week) have come back fine.

Bless you, it must be scary having epilepsy and being pregnant at the same time 😞 24 weeks is a big milestone! I know it's so easy to worry but I'm sure your baby will be just fine, sounds like you're getting good care from the hospital. Honestly I don't think we can know these things, I have very good intuition and I lost a baby at 19 weeks 2 years ago. I had absolutely no feeling at all that anything would go wrong, infact I felt it was a really strong healthy pregnancy. So I don't trust my feelings like this anymore! I'm pregnant again and so anxious something will go wrong but all I can do is let go and trust there is a bigger plan. If my baby is meant to be here it will. I heard a quote a while ago that said 'if you're meant to miscarry/lose baby nothing will stop it but if your baby is meant to be born nothing will stop it'. I take comfort in that, hope you can too. Wishing you all the best!

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. I have no medical reasons for thinking things will go wrong, but I 100% still do. I've only ever had losses, so the idea of this pregnancy working out just feels impossible.

Not advice as such, but just wanted to say you're not alone