hi lovelies just needed to write cos feelin all sorts today. 14 weeks this mornin n it’s suddenly hit me like… oh god this is really happening isn’t it 😭 not just a line on a stick or weird dreams or me bein tired all the time lol.
hips aching loads today already n barely slept. ds4 was up twice with nightmares n then i was up again just overthinkin everything like usual 🙃 kept feelin baby must hate me already cos i’m so stressed all the time. felt like cryin so i sat in the bathroom for ages with the light off. proper pathetic.
dp didn’t message last night again. said he was just “zonked” but i dunno. feels like i’m doin this on my own again n it’s still early. how’s that fair 😕
i know i got 4 kids already so i should be used to this but it don’t feel like that. this time i just want to try n do it right. like make memories, not just survive it. but it’s hard when ur sofa’s ur bed n ur house is always flippin chaos 😅
sorry this is long n bit moany. just feeling it today. i might try n write a lil list later for baby stuff. or names. something nice.
thanks if u read this. x