Just feeling abit rubbish at the minute. Boyfriends gone to Lanzarote for two weeks to ‘see his nan’ and I’m left behind at 15 weeks pregnant and the whole things just upset me since he announced he was going. It upset me at first because we’d agreed to find out the gender of the baby privately at 15 weeks and he knew I had another appointment to go to aswell. Then this suddenly came out of nowhere to go and now he’s not here for either one of those things. He didn’t think to consider me or his baby when making his decision to go and I’m left feeling like yet again somethings more important, he could of waited to go till we’d done these two important things. Then Told me to rebook my appointment aswell which annoyed me because I’d already rebooked the 12 week scan weeks ago when he suddenly had a job opportunity beginning the day of my scan that came through the night before, he told me it’s important it’s work so needed to go, I ended up rebooking because I didn’t want to go alone or him miss seeing his child, but promised he’d be there for all the rest. Another thing I’m upset about is that I’d told him months ago I wanted us to go on holiday together before the babies born if it’s possible because I’d like for us to have that memory before babies born and then it’ll be family holidays, but moneys tight so we’d have to save. Nothings been brought for baby yet either but he doesn’t care about spending money on tickets and all the money he’s wasting while over there. Originally aswell he told his aunt ( who said she might go which gave him the idea but she didn’t end up going) he was only going to go for a few days as he didn’t want to leave me for long. That went out the window when he decided two weeks. It all just feels abit rubbish and didn’t even think to invite me to come along. He said he wants to see his nan and tell her in person she’s going to be a great nan. I told him you’re not going for two weeks to just sit and spend time with your nan you’re gonna mess about while you’re over there. He was adamant it was to see his nan. Yet when we was around friends he was excitedly discussing all the things he could do while he was there such as jet skiing or finding a group of tourists to tag along with and perhaps go the water park. This rubbed me the wrong way because It was proving my point, you’re treating it like a holiday and using your nan as the excuse, and this is also stuff you could be doing with your gf and making memories why would you rather do it alone? then it further upset me because you’d rather be jet skiing than finding out the gender of your baby. When I brought this up he again said he’s going to see his nan. Several people said to him aswell why you going for that long why not take your gf etc, come to find out his nan doesn’t even know about me and he didn’t want to bring a stranger Into her house. Fair enough I suppose but he was meant to of asked her months before when he originally said he was gonna go see her about me coming to. So he didn’t ask or even tell her about me. (Him going away now came suddenly because he didn’t speak about going over there again or that he’d made any plans) it upset me aswell that in the few days before he left he’d been on FaceTime to his nan several times and didn’t think to introduce me then either and say something quick and simple as ‘say a quick hi to my gf nan’. Hes in Lanzarote now and again probed my point because within 24 hours of being there has gotten shit faced and was smoking weed. Today Has been drinking since 1pm gone to get more weed and I haven’t heard off him in the last 4 hours going on 5 so no idea as to what he’s doing, yet if I don’t reply within an hour I get 21 questions. I just feel rubbish because I knew this would happen, that’s not spending time with your nan that’s treating it like a holiday that you’ve gotten a little cheaper because she lives over there. You’d rather be doing that than finding out the gender of your child. I’ve decided I’m still going to go ahead with finding out the gender because we’d agreed to do it, I don’t think it’s fair that I should have to wait because he’s now decided his holiday was more important. I told him aswell I can’t keep rebooking appointments they’re important. I think this will end in a massive argument aswell that I didn’t wait for him but I feel like why should I miss out he’s done something he feels is important to him, this is important to me. He can make the sacrifice now because he didn’t care to wait. Just doesn’t feel great.