Pregnancy Anxiety

[Soph1809]

Hi, not really sure what I’m looking for but guess just some support. I had an ectopic last Oct shortly followed by miscarriage. I am now 14w3d leading up to dating scan I was super anxious I had early scan due to previous ectopic at 6w then private scan 10 then at 13 had dating scan and all positive. I thought after that my anxiety would ease but it’s just creeping back in. I’ve naturally told more people now and find myself thinking have I jinxed it, it could still go wrong and lots of horrible thoughts it’s like I can’t let myself think I’m pregnant because it might not be okay. Moving house in 10 days which is a nice distraction to be honest! I was debating another private scan but I don’t want to be become reliant on them and I fear the reassurance may only be temporary. I have 16w appt with midwife and im sure with my daughter they checked for HB…. I’m sure some of what I am feeling is normal given my past losses. But just struggling.
Thanks in advance x

Really sorry to hear about the ectopic pregnancy and miscarriage. I felt very similar earlier on in pregnancy and had private scans too. I often said to my wife as we told more people I was worried about jinxing it but she said at what point would I actually feel like I wasn't, not until the baby is born, there are still risks then so not until they're 5? 😅 also I know it isn't everything but statistics of a success as the pregnancy continues is very much on your side. I used this to help me in earlier pregnancy: datayze.com/miscarriage-reassurer

I found after the 20 week scan and once I started feeling definite regular movement (a few days after the 20 week scan I started to feel actual kicks and then they continued to get stronger and more frequent) that I felt quite a lot more comforted. I'm now 34 weeks, obviously there are always risks of things going wrong but I just have to hope that the tiny chance is not likely to happen. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!