Worried - faint positive

[Binturong93]

Hi, sorry I know this is probably annoying however, I don't really have anyone I can share this with at the moment.
Around 10 months ago I had a miscarriage (6 weeks). Found out we were pregnant on the Sunday then on the Wednesday I started to bleed for two months. We think potentially chemical pregnancy but unsure, it still really messed up our emotions. We've been trying since then with no success, currently just been referred to fertility service.
I woke up this morning - due my period tomorrow - but just thought "do a test". I used a HCG stick. It came up with a faint positive. Done another one tonight - daft cos I've been drinking a lot of fluids so quite diluted. There is still a faint line. Now, I'd be around 3 weeks. I am terrified the same thing is going to happen and I feel so stupid for testing and doing this to myself. My husband knows about the first test. He isn't annoyed but wants me to wait for a few weeks before doing another. He is the same as me and doesn't want our hopes built up and crushed again.
I am trying not to now become focused or obsessed but it is difficult. Does anyone have any tips or been in this situation before? I would appreciate some advice.
I'm very sorry if this is inappropriate or stirs up some emotions for people. I will delete if this is wrong to put up.

Congratulations on your positive, and I'm sorry for your previous loss. 💐 I had an early loss at 5-6 weeks between my two successful pregnancies. If the lines get darker within 48 hours, it's a great sign. There's also no harm going to your GP for a HCG blood draw - you deserve peace of mind if you want it. I also had a 7 week scan after & found it very reassuring.

Personally, I wasn't able to avoid becoming obsessive and think few women are able to do that. Leaning in with a plan made me feel better.

Morning, I'm sorry for your losses also, but thank you for your advice.
The lines are quite solid. I've even compared to a photograph I have of my test from last time. Definitely solid this time. But think I was closer to being 5 weeks last time.
I am horrendous to get blood from - I end up black and blue 😅 I'll maybe give myself so many a week and a date to phone up to book in.
I'm a third in denial, a third in shock and a third that's happy it's hopefully happening. I'll try keep myself mentally healthy!

You can test again after 48h but if the line is already solid, you’re pregnant. Congratulations! Don’t feel stupid for testing, in your situation I couldn’t not test.

Of course it’s understandable to guard your heart and to fear another loss, but I hope you are able to find your joy as well in the days to come. You can look at it as ‘getting your hopes up,’ or you can view it as cherishing every stage of development, whatever happens tomorrow. Take it day by day, and today you are pregnant! Have a lovely Sunday.

We have to take it one day at a time. Taking tests won’t change anything, won’t speed up scans, but I am doing it for some level of reassurance anyway 🫠

I have one child but it was a long journey to have her, and a long journey to get to where I am now (which was a positive test Friday). I’m trying to keep myself busy, be rational with the crazy thoughts if I can, until mini ‘milestones’. I have a complicated history so one of those is hassling the recurrent miscarriage clinic Monday, as my GP isn’t happy with their advice (and is also contacting them, but wants a two pronged approach).

Here in solidarity!

I hope you have a successful and smoother journey this time.
I'm thinking milestones is a good idea. One week at a time until a scan at least.

Thank you... This might be a thick question. So if it's solid just now at 3 weeks is that it? There's no chance it could then go faint again?

It could go faint again. It’s linked to hcg. If your level drop the test will get fainter.