39, pregnant and so anxious.

[Nalyn]

Hi to anyone who will read this.
Last week, I found out I was pregnant. I'm 39, this was not planned at all, but was a happy surprise after being told I'd not ever be pregnant again.
I estimate I am between 6 and 8 weeks gone.
I have 4 children, have suffered 3 losses.
I literally cannot stop worrying that my pregnancy won't stick.
Having only known a week, I've already grown attached to this little seedling and desperately want everything to go as it should.
So today, in an anxious state, I booked an early reassurance scan for tomorrow 😑 and now my anxiety has gone into overdrive and I can't tell if my nausea is due to pregnancy or anxiety. Just to clarify, I've not been sick and the nausea is manageable. My sense of smell seems heightened but I dont really have other symptoms like I did with my other healthy pregnancies.
Am I just coping better because I'm much older this time round?! I don't even want to consider the other possibilities.
In my heart, I believe this baby can grow, I can have a healthy pregnancy and meet my baby sometime in December. But the overwhelming anxiety has me panicking about the bad side and I can't shake it off.
Sorry for the long ramble, I just needed to get it off my chest (which is slightly hurting and I can't tell the difference between pregnancy and anxiety with that either 😖).

Congratulations on your pregnancy. Try not to worry. I know it’s easier said than done but try and focus positively on the scan tomorrow. It sounds like this baby was meant to be, if you’d been told you wouldn’t get pregnant again. Sending a big hug to you. I hope you get some sleep. I’m throwing some baby dust your way 💕

Thank you so much for your lovely response, I needed that to wake up to.
I'm awake much earlier than normal as I can't get back to sleep.
I thought I may have to go to the scan alone (OH has to go to work) but a friend has offered to come with me. My appointment is 1.45pm, just a few more hours of the battle in my head and my heart.
Mentally sweeping up the baby dust and keeping it close! Thank you again x

I'm pregnant with number 2 with 2 miscarriages in between my daughter and this pregnancy. With my daughter and my miscarriages I had horrific sickness and had to have time off sick lost lots of weight. This time around I didn't find out I was expecting until 7.5 weeks by which point I was usually chained to the sofa or toilet! I had a scan at the epu a few days later finding out I was already 8 weeks! This was further along gestationally than my previous two pregnancies managed even though it was closer to 10 weeks that I passed the pregnancy. I was prescribed progesterone until 16 weeks and am now 18 weeks! I have barely felt pregnant at all I can't believe how different this pregnancy has been compared to the other pregnancies!

That's so reassuring to hear! Congratulations 🥰
So, I had my early scan, and I'm actually earlier than I thought, they can see everything is measuring correctly but it's the yolk sac they had to go by which is measuring 4w6d.
It took forever for the woman to talk and I fully expected her to give me bad news. She said my pregnancy is in the correct place and everything is as it should be for the timings.
They surprised me by saying they'd rebook me for 2 weeks time, free of charge. By then, everything should be showing up.
Also explains why I'm not getting many side effects, it could be a little early.
So, I'm a tiny little less anxious, cautiously optimistic, just hoping for everything to continue progressing as it is.
Looks like we have a Christmas baby!

Aw… that’s lovely news! And how fantastic that they’ve offered you another scan FOC in 2 weeks!

@Nalyn aw amazing congratulations! Sounds like everything is progressing as it should, and if the private scans are enough to alleviate some of your anxiety then I would just carry on until you’re feeling a bit more relaxed. If it’s any consolation I’m also 39 and had similar concerns as well but so far everything has been normal for me so definitely don’t assume that anything will go wrong! Wishing you a healthy and happy pregnancy and all the best for your Christmas baby 😊

@MaltipooMama Thank you so much 🥰
Congratulations to you too! I'm so glad all is good for you too. Once the next scan confirms all is well, I will feel much better and will then wait for the 12 week one. Can't say I'll be patient enough not to have the 15 week gender scan though. Whilst all I am wishing for is a healthy baby, I am still desperate to know who they are 😊
I feel like life is going to get so exciting and our Christmas baby is my gift to my partner 😆😆 xx

I agree that step by step is definitely the way to go! By 12 weeks you’ll probably be feeling so much more relaxed, and I was definitely NOT patient enough to wait and ended up having early blood tests at 6 weeks with both of mine to find out the sex 🙈 I was thrilled either way but I just couldn’t wait to picture them in my head and start picking out things I wanted to buy! What a wonderful Christmas you’re all going to have with a lovely newborn in tow 🥰

@MaltipooMamaI saw the blood tests offered today! Would so tempted but the price tag was a little bit hefty for me at the moment 😩 I know my partner is more impatient than me though so he maybe tempted to pay for it haha!
Thank you so much ladies, I'd love to hear your updates if you'd like to post and keep in touch 😊 xx