Headscramled need some advice

[Mum23boys1987]

Hi guys ,I turned 38 yesterday am a work from home mum to 3 older boys 16,14,11 living abroad. I have always wanted 4 children and we finally decided to ttc again end 2023 I concieved august 2024. But heartbreakingly had a mmc at 10 weeks(d&c) it caused me some emotional trauma and added to my already bad anxiety. We gave ourselves a bit of time and then decided to just see what happens approach obviously nothing has. We have just booked to go away me and the children for our yearly trip back to visit family back to UK in July for 4 weeks. I am now terrified if I fall pg ill be within the danger zone still and something will happen while I'm away from my husband it's a lot of what ifs running through my head but am also not keen to delay ttc any longer due to my age this is all making me feel so overwhelmed and upset I don't want to put my life on hold but am not sure how I'd cope being away from home my husband and my ob if I was to fall pg before then. It just seems I don't have enough confidence and trust in my body since the miscarriage anyone advise there thoughts on what you would do

Hi, so not exactly your situation but I fell pregnant a little before my yearly trip with just the kids back to the uk. I actually ended up miscarrying on the drive over, the whole time there and the drive back.
The way I saw it, was that as soon as I was back on uk soil I had the language, the knowledge of the NHS system and the fact that my nationality was British so no hidden costs on my side if something where to go wrong.
I ended up getting a private scan midway through my drive up north to confirm lack of heartbeat and then I contacted the epu in the place I was staying to book a d and c. Ended up not needing it as I passed it naturally the day of the call.
You're also not alone. You're generally surrounded by friends and family because it's a trip back to see them.
It probably helped it wasn't my 1st miscarriage so I had some idea about it all, but the hardest part was having to be on the go when I just wanted to sit for a few hours. But that's life with kids too....
Hope that helps in any way?
Good luck with whatever you decide x

Thank-you and your strength inspires me. I just suffer anxiety and irrational fear naturally so it's heightened by anything out of the ordinary I see all the what if I miscarry and hemorrhage and couldn't make the hospital if you know what I mean. Also I've been living outside thr UK for 18 years always take a insurance as not sure NHS would cover me anymore and don't know if the insurance would cover those kind of elements of pregnancy loss... I hate being this way as its controlling my life

If you still have a British passport then you're still entitled to British health care as far as I know it.
I know a lot of expats who actually travel back to the uk for major health issues like surgeries and such.
I must admit the hemorrhaging was on my mind, but again, I'd been through many mc's so I was sort of aware of what was normal and what wasn't, but then also aware that the uk cities all have hospitals and they are so often as opposed to where we currently live.
But I absolutely understand the anxiety, I used to suffer greatly myself and know how debilitating it can be, and anxiety around pregnancy after loss is a whole other ball game
Have you maybe considered some sort of therapy for that aspect?