Pregnancy feels wrong

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I’m pregnant with my 3rd baby (6 weeks) . I really wanted another, but as soon as it happened I kind of just felt dread rather than anything else.

I’ve had 4 early miscarriages in the past, so I’m probably expecting the worst.

I developed epilepsy with my 2nd pregnancy. I was pretty ill. I take Lamotrigine for this. Already I’ve had a seizure during this pregnancy (awareness seizures). I’m panicking as I’m worried the Lamotrigine may cause birth defects. It’s the safest epilepsy medication you can take, but I’ve just got this horrible feeling that it’s really going to affect the baby.

I just can’t seem to shake the feeling that this is all wrong. Has anyone else felt similar?

I have no experience but didn't want to read and run. I hope everything works out for you. Do you have a professional involved you can discuss your concerns with or an epilepsy charity, maybe even a support group on FB? x

Hi OP, it's not that this pregnancy is all wrong, it's that you're experiencing anxiety, which is totally natural considering the circs you've described.

I'd tell your doctor your fears. Maybe you can have some therapy. And I would download some app for anxiety like Calm. Try meditating, gentle swimming, gentle walks, nice music. You're just worried, that's all. Sending hugs xxx

Hey OP. Agree with what @ThisFluentBiscuit says. I had a similar if more extreme reaction to planned 3rd. It seems to be so much more common that people speak about. The anxiety can be crippling and feels nothing but wholly real. Hormones are not fun. Your brain is trying to protect you from what it perceives as a threat. Just because your brain is perceiving a threat doesn’t mean there actually is one though. Agree about speaking to doctor, they should be able to reassure you from a medication pov and hopefully also be able to signpost you to ways to help manage it.