Feeling a bit meh. I have no other way to describe it

[Amyjade2022]

I am just coming up to 10 weeks pregnant with my third baby. Firstly I want to say I am very pleased and grateful and secondly I don’t want any of this to sound self centred.
Timing wise I’ve had a lot of things go on (family issues / health scares etc also had to have 3 early scans due to bleeding) which has been tough.
I have also had two people close to me lose a baby in the time since I have found out about this pregnancy, one a work colleague and one a dear friend who has very recently delivered and lost a baby in her final trimester. We are all utterly heartbroken for her. I haven’t told any of these people I am currently pregnant and there are a lot of hard and upsetting conversations I’m hearing at the moment.

i don’t even know what I’m trying to say really I guess I’m just feeling a bit numb about my own pregnancy. Like it’s just not even happening or real and I can’t get excited about it. I was so excited the whole time with my first two I just wish I felt the same

I feel the same. I've just found out I'm pregnant. Not even 4 weeks. I had a miscarriage last August so pregnancy just really isn't the same once you've had a miscarriage I think. My first pregnancy was smooth, successful, no issues. I was blissfully naive. And had my lo. After my 2nd pregnancy last year -I'm not naive anymore and I know in an instant it can all just be taken away. No signs, no reason. TBH I didn't feel happy when I got the positive test. Neither was my husband we sort of both just shrugged. Totally detached. Because we know a positive test doesn't always mean a baby.