ok- dd was born at 39+2 and i naively convinced myself this one would pop out at 39 weeks tops. had a sweep on monday and the mw's words where "your cervix is so wide you could fit a double decker bus in there", at least 3cm dilated...
had a massive show this am. but stll NOTHING, i don't feel like this baby is coming any time soon....
the gas engineer has just been to read the meter and told me he had 5 children at home and delivered the last himself cos mw didn't make it in time. i honestly almost asked him to check me over in the completely irrational belief that he would be the best midwife ever and could somehow pull the baby over. i didn't- although he did sweep behind my stove.
i am being the b*tch from hell to dh and my mum who came over to help. i alternate between hugging dd till she can no longer breathe and pushing her away to be on my own.
but i am still terrified of the birth and i am sure this is why the baby ain't coming.
anyone has any ideas on how to get a grip on myself????